Showing posts with label Take Another Road. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Take Another Road. Show all posts

Saturday, February 11, 2017

The Other Roads Club, Reconsidered

Well, here's a look at an old manuscript...I began writing "The Other Roads Club" trilogy back in 2008 or '09...after a number of years of edits, and fooling around with it, I realize it's got a long way to go. But I wanted to play around with it again...it stands up pretty well. I can see where my style has changed over the years. I wonder what you think...this is the introduction from Book 1, "Take Another Road." Let's meet a new/old heroine, Aimi, and her interesting friends...

Chapter 1--Letters, and the Golden Pair
Dear Kira-chan: I have only a short time before breakfast, so I must make this note a quick one. I was up late into the night reading The Bonesetter’s Daughter. Amy Tan is a wondrous writer; the story was at times sad, but one that really made you think. I will see if I can find more of her stories in the library.
So yes, I still read a great deal. It helps in these days, but I am well, and I hope you are the same. I miss you very much, yet each day I do my best to move forward.
Kaz will be meeting up with Kaldera today, and I just might get to meet this other boy who has been taking lessons from him. Kaz says he is very different, but someone he’s sure I’d like. He too likes to read and is very much into the western classics.
Mother is calling me; I must go. I love you, Kira-chan, as always…Aimi.
Aimi Okuda set her writing aside and cast a brief glance at the framed photograph that looked down from the top shelf of her desk. Smoothing back her long black hair, she turned and stood before the mirror above the dresser. Aimi clipped two metal barrettes in place, adjusted the collar and matching blue neck ribbon of her school uniform and the waist of the short, pleated skirt; she then made sure the level of her blue legwarmers matched at the knees. Aimi then picked up her book bag and stepped out the sliding door into the narrow hallway.
Moving past her parents’ bedroom, Aimi looked out into the front of her home. To her right was the small, threadbare living room. To her left in the kitchen, a woman had just finished packing lunches for the family.
“Good morning, Mom,” Aimi said as she slid past the breakfast table behind her mother.
“Good morning.” Madoka returned her daughter’s greeting and closed the three wooden bento boxes before setting them on the counter next to the stove. “Aimi,” she asked, “would you shout down the basement to your father? Breakfast is ready, and we’ve got to leave soon.”
“Okay.” Footsteps clumped up the steps now, so Aimi took her place at the low table. Tucking her long pigtail securely inside her red morning robe, Madoka sat beside her daughter, and the two began to serve three plates of rice rolled in seaweed, setting them beside small bowls of soy sauce, along with last night’s leftover baked fish.
“Here I am, no need to yell for me.” Aimi’s father, Goro squeezed himself through the tiny door that led to the cellar and slid it shut behind him. Dressed in blue jeans and a dark blue work shirt, he entered the kitchen and sat down across from his wife. Goro was in his early forties, short but strongly built. He ran his hand through his black hair, which had a few grey streaks in it and picked up his coffee cup. “The new flutes are packed and ready,” he said before taking a sip of the black brew. “They should go over well today.”
The Okuda family owned and operated a small shop in the Ameyoko section of Tokyo. The area was once the source of black market goods following World War II, but had since evolved into a colorful, bustling place of business. Their shop specialized in traditional and modern Japanese artwork. The more popular items were prints of certain scenes the tourists favored, but Goro’s handmade flutes or shakuhachi were popular, as were Madoka’s calligraphy paintings.
As the three began to eat, Aimi told them, “I will be over after school to help.” She related to her parents of the meeting that was scheduled to take place.
“Good.” Goro nodded approvingly and said, “Tell Kaldera if you see him that I may have some money for him. I believe a buyer is coming for that guitar of his.”
“I will.” The family discussed the upcoming day’s work at the shop, and the activities at Aimi’s school. “The class trip to Koga is next weekend,” she commented, “it’s all anyone’s been talking about.”
Madoka looked with sympathy at her daughter. “I’m sorry we couldn’t afford for you to go, Aimi. It would have been good for you.”
Aimi shrugged. “It’s okay,” she replied, her expression and voice sincere. “Kaz and Mei aren’t going, either. Besides,” she went on, “I have a feeling something else is going to happen that will beat going to see the Ninja Museum!”
All three laughed as a knock came on the door, which slid back a moment later. “Morning, all,” a female voice called.
The Okudas welcomed in the new arrivals, a uniformed boy and girl. “Hello, Kaz, Mei,” Aimi returned.            
“Come sit,” Goro told the pair, and the two removed their shoes and took up spaces on either side of Aimi.
“Yes, and help yourselves,” Madoka told them. She motioned to the plates on the table, “there’s plenty.”
“Oh no, thank you,” the one called Kaz returned politely. “I’m well-fed.” Kazuhiro Ogawa was tall and thin; his black hair was worn long, but not so much to become a concern for the school district’s regulations. He lived next door to Aimi, as he had all their lives.
“Don’t mind if I do,” Mei said as she helped herself to a piece of the nori and dipped it into Aimi’s bowl. Meiho Maeda was another neighbor on the street, the most outgoing of the group. Mei was thickset in her build, the product of years of martial arts training. The uniform showed off her musculature, in particular her well-defined thighs and calves.
These, however, weren’t the first things people tended to notice when they saw Mei for the first time. Her face was plain, but bore the bloodlines of Korea as well as Japan. Her hair was black, thick and very long, held in place by several bobby pins and a black plastic hair clip. Her dark eyes were accented by the black eye makeup she wore; this plus her larger than normal girth gave Mei a menacing image. “How is everyone?” She asked, taking care to swallow before speaking.
“Another day,” Goro replied and rolled his eyes to the ceiling, “another day poorer,” which again drew laughter.
“How is your mother doing, Mei?” Madoka asked. “I feel sad I’ve not been over to visit in a while.”
Mei nodded. “Mom’s better today,” she replied, “and she says hello to all of you.” Mei’s mother had been ill for some time and was no longer able to work. As a result, Mei looked after her, especially on her more difficult days.
Aimi looked to Kaz. “How are your mom and dad, by the way?” She asked.
Kaz shrugged, and the look on his face showed right away. “They were both out the door before I was up,” he replied, “the usual.” Kaz’s father was lead mechanic at an automotive repair center in the city, while his mother worked in a downtown department store. The Ogawa’s of late were rarely seen, due to their schedules.
Aimi had known that her first question had struck a nerve, and inside she wished she hadn’t asked it. Changing the subject, Aimi then asked, “How about today? Kaldera’s coming over to school, right?”
At the mention of Kaldera, Kaz became more like himself. “Yes, and Minoru’s coming by, too,” he said. “You guys will love him. He’s quite the musician.” Kaz went on to explain that Minoru went to the exclusive public school near theirs.
Seated between her friends, Aimi detected the barely perceptible growl that came from her left, from Mei. She made no reaction to it, and Aimi continued to listen to Kaz. “He’s very good on the shamisen,” Kaz explained, “and he’s been learning guitar like I have from Kaldera. Oh, and another thing: Kaldera wants to take the boat out next weekend. He wanted to know if you would be interested.”
Madoka smiled. “Well, Aimi,” she said, “you just predicted something different might happen.”
“What does Kaldera have in mind?” Goro asked, equally interested.
“I don’t know,” Kaz replied. “He just mentioned it in passing the other day. He’s also planning to play out this week. I hope he’ll let us know more about that, too.”
Aimi then turned to Mei. “What’s up with your Tae Kwon Do?” She asked. “Did you hear about the testing?”
“Yes.” Mei smiled, probably her first broad one of the day. “Matsunaga-Sensei says I’m all but ready for my test, the big one.”
All voiced congratulations. Now sixteen (the same age as her friends), Mei had risen through the junior ranks to the red belt. The aforementioned final test would come soon, and if all went well, Mei would gain the long-sought black belt. “I’ve been waiting for this a long time,” she said, “and I’m hopeful; but I’m not gonna believe it until Sensei says so.”
“Well,” Kaz said, “we’ll be there to see it.”
The group broke up, and Madoka invited the pair over for dinner that evening. A regular occurrence, as Kaz’s parents tended to work long hours, and it gave Mei a break from home.            
The three watched and waved goodbye to Aimi’s parents as they drove down the narrow street in the old white Suzuki mini truck. With the Okudas on their way, the three teenagers headed in the other direction. In addition to his book bag, Kaz also carried his acoustic guitar in its hard case.
“So we’ll finally get to meet Minoru,” Aimi said. “You’ve spoken so well of him; I am anxious to find out what he’s like.”
Mei nodded, but said nothing. Her gaze appeared fixed ahead, but as Aimi was a little shorter, she could note that her friend’s eyes were downcast. Reaching out, she put her hand into Mei’s, the other into Kaz’s.
Aimi noticed that Mei’s smile returned, and Kaz had one as well. That made hers even larger. It will be a good day. I am glad to make my two oldest friends smile. Then I can smile a little more, too.
* * *
The silver Jaguar pulled up to the curb and stopped without a sound. The rear door opened, and the tall girl alighted. Bending from the waist, she leaned into the window and thanked the driver, then stood to watch him drive away.
She turned to look over the main courtyard of Katsuhashi Academy. The fan-shaped yard which led to the main doors of the impressive brick building was populated by numerous uniformed students. Most talked in small groups; a few were seated on the grass or on benches, studying or socializing before homeroom.
The girl checked her face in a compact mirror before walking in, and noted with some satisfaction that the eyes of many of the male students and older passerby were on her lean, athletic body. She ascertained her white and blue uniform blouse was straight, the red scarf and the seams of her short dark blue skirt in line. Shouldering her book bag, she walked into the courtyard and brushed back her long, flowing black hair with careful casualness.
She looked over the knots of boys, they in the all-black uniform of the spring semester. The girl listened as well, but not to the chatter of her fellow students. She did not hear that other sound which she expected at this time of the morning
“Asuka-san! Ohayo!” The call of two girls’ voices broke Asuka from her search, and she turned to greet her classmates as they rushed up.
“Ohayo.” Homoka and Masami were two of her closest friends; like Asuka, both were in their second year of high school. The former was Asuka’s teammate in field hockey. She was short and had the classic, thin build of a Japanese girl. Her hair was long and black and styled much like that of Asuka’s. Masami was also thin, but she did not play sports. Her own straight hair hung past her shoulders, and she wore expensive eyeglasses, plus a black beret perched at the correct angle on her head.
The girls walked on either side of Asuka as they passed through the courtyard. Over the typical questions of how her friends were doing plus other matters of the school day, Asuka was paying only scant attention. She continued to search ahead of her; then near the main doors, she saw a boy sitting alone on a bench with a curious musical instrument in his hands.
“Minoru-kun,” she called as she moved quickly to his side. As she did, the boy rose, carefully set down his shamisen, bowed and smiled.
Minoru Higa was a teenager that would stand out in any crowd. He was tall, and looked even thinner than he was in the uniform. His hair was thick and naturally wavy, the ends just a little past his collar. This was actually against regulations at Katsuhashi; but then, Minoru seemed to get away with such things.
“Good morning, Asuka-chan.” Minoru accepted Asuka’s police kiss. He also hailed Homoka and Masami and bowed to them, which pleased the girls much more than a simple greeting should.
“How are you today?” Asuka looked into those dark, almost black eyes.
“I am quite well, thank you,” he quietly replied. “I’m glad I got to see you before school, Asuka. I wanted to ask you about something.”
Longtime friends, Minoru dispensed with the honorific, usually after the initial greeting. That to Asuka was just one of Minoru’s “ways,” of which there were many.
“Of course,” Asuka replied.
As on cue, Asuka’s friends made their excuses and stepped away. Minoru chuckled at this. “They are so tactful,” he joked. “You have them well trained.”
The two laughed as they sat on the bench. As Minoru placed his shamisen in a padded leather shoulder bag, Asuka replied, “They are not trained, I can assure you, Minoru. They are merely kind about giving us our space.”
“Yes, and carrying on with the Camelot-like nature of what they, and everyone else thinks our relationship is.” Setting the bag alongside his books, Minoru said, still smiling (though Asuka could tell its meaning had changed), “I gather you have heard what they’re all saying about us.”
“I care not what others say,” Asuka replied. “It is what we both think that matters.”
“Supposedly,” Minoru went on, “we are the Golden Pair. That perfect couple.” He snorted with barely hidden distaste. “I don’t know about you, Asuka, but frankly I am embarrassed by it.”
Asuka gently laid her hand on Minoru’s shoulder. “No one means anything bad by it,” she said. “Yes, I have heard that too, and it is rather juvenile. Let the others talk; it means nothing to me.”
She watched as Minoru turned slightly and looked into her eyes. They seemed sad and apologetic. “I didn’t mean to put down your friends,” he told her. “I’m sorry.”
“No, don’t think that. You are so decent to everyone,” Asuka said. “Don’t worry about them, or me. We have each other; that is what matters, isn’t that right?”
Minoru smiled. “Right,” he replied. “Oh, if I may now ask you about that certain something?”
Asuka smiled and nodded. “You may.”
“Kaldera is going to be over at Masuyo today,” Minoru explained. “I’m meeting up with my good friend Kaz over there, too. Why don’t you come with me? You know Kaldera already, and I think you’d really get along with Kaz and his friends.”
As he spoke, Minoru examined Asuka’s expression. At the mention of the name of the public school, her eyebrows raised and her face, slimmer in its lines than most Japanese, took on a slight change and the smile fell away. Minoru expected this; it was the logical, almost programmed reaction where Asuka was concerned.
“I…don’t know,” Asuka replied, but she looked away and said no more.
“Oh, do come with me, Asuka.” Minoru took her hand, and quickly added, “It is not like we would be exploring a wild world. Kaz is a fine person, and I’m quite excited to meet these friends of his. A few new friends are always a good thing, wouldn’t you say?”
Asuka turned to face him, and her smile returned. “You can talk me into anything, Minoru,” she replied. “Yes, I’ll gladly go with you. The hockey season is over, and the dinner party is not until later in the evening. By the way, you are coming, aren’t you?”
“Indeed.” The two rose, and Minoru shouldered his shamisen. “Your father has become rather a patron of my music, which I am grateful for.”
As he picked up his books with his free hand, Asuka noted the familiar leather-bound volume atop the stack. “Here I stand amid the roar…” she chided.
…of a surf-tormented shore,” Minoru returned with a grin.

The outside loudspeakers then emitted the tones for homeroom, and the two entered the building hand in hand, awash in the mass of those wearing the school’s colors.

Sunday, October 14, 2012

"You're Not an Author...You're a Screenwriter..." (plus Phantom, Rocker & Slick, Pete Townshend and other subjects...)

Well, greetings once more, fellow bloggers, blurkers and the like...it has been some time since I have been here.  Suffice to say I've been extremely busy, and I am now seeking the thoughts of certain individuals...to whit, YOU.

To prepare myself, I'm at the Office and cranking the Phantom, Rocker & Slick limited edition CD I got the other day.  Post-Stray Cats mid-80's roots rock.  Powerful stuff, and memories of my college radio days.  Awesome stuff.  Considering the Stray Cats rockabilly revival, and Lee Rocker's move into his own solo career, all very good indeed.  Not to mention Brian Setzer's career since then.

I have been keeping myself busy, in this time of little employment.  No word on my sojourn to the Midwest, but I have a feeling things are not going to go the way I wish; other irons in the fire there.

The Hershey Bears opened the AHL season last night, and I produced the game; I'll have that, plus public radio stuff, but I need more.  Don't we all...and I still work with my alter ego, DJ`Riff on www.radio-airwaves.co.uk -- usually Monday afternoons.  Had some issues with the software, so hopefully we'll get that fixed.

Writing wise, I have been very much into editing mode.  I finished edits of "Time the Healer," "Parasite Girls" and "Out Among the Stars."  In leading up to what I will talk to you about, I had an inspiration to do something different:

About three years ago or whenever it was, I wrote a manuscript called "The Beauty Way."  The title is ripped from a song by Eliza Gilkyson, but my first hearing of it was a cover by Ray Wylie Hubbard.  I love what Ray did with it, and it's an excellent story song.

The story is forgettable, and is about me, a stab at autobiography of one specific point in my life.  It was essentially a three-day rant, and I tried to write it in the style of Larry McMurtry.  

I put it aside after awhile because it just did not go anywhere.  Then about a year or so ago, I began writing a series of songs, which turned into a cycle, and began to look like a radio concept album.

Some of the songs were done by my old band, Ahltyrra, but most were new, plus a cover song that fit.  I resumed looking at these recently; most of the songs are composed (guitar, anyway).

Then I thought:  COMBINE THE TWO ELEMENTS.  I suddenly realized they had a connection, and the characters of "Beauty Way" are almost the same as those in the concept.  

So I am slowly putting it together...that's where I got a very interesting assessment of my writing, and my writing style.

My friend Alice (Edgar Alice Croe in the blogosphere) has provided a perspective...I toyed with a screenplay style for the rewrite.  Haven't done more than two or three pages.  

Alice looked at it, and said it was good.  She then said, based on the bits she has read, that my writing style is NOT suited for books.

She basically said, "You're not an author, you're a screenwriter."

Her point is that I often paint too big a picture in a book in order to take you there; too much detail, too much information.  Not so much needed.  But in a screenplay, you kind of need that.

Here is the next point she makes, for my Sweet Dreams Series project:  make them, and the others as independent films.

The SDS and a lot of my other writings are anime/manga related anyway; a filmic version is a better template for producers to use.

Hmmm...

Now, one of my stories is still on this blog, in a serialized chapter by chapter method, "Take Another Road."  Is Alice off the mark, or not?

I think she's hit on a fair amount of it...I wonder....

My aim now is to take "The Beauty Way" into a screenplay, and see how it works...most of my songs will be in it, and there's others that arrive in my head as incidental music.  I think it will be interesting to say the least.

I have not written a screenplay since college, but I know the format alright.  So, if indie filmmakers are interested, this might be a cool project down the road...

No matter where I end up this year, I'll still be on it.  I wonder if the SDS and older writings suffer from this, I really do wonder.

That being said:

Last Monday, Pete Townshend's autobio, "Who I Am" dropped.  Townshend and the Who have been huge inspirations to me, and Pete (it was confirmed in the book) found the way to say what we all wanted to say, but could not put into words.  He had that gift.

The book is just over 500 pages long; it took me three days to read, but it was a fast read.  Pete is honest, forward, unafraid and unpretentious in his writing.  This may make you uncomfortable at times, but not for me.

Townshend reveals secrets about his first guitar smash, what "A Quick One" is really about, and the horrific abuse he suffered as a child.  His opinions about his bandmates, those around him, his family, all of it are fair game, and Pete writes in a very honest, sometimes affectionate and other times pointed manner about them.  

There are questions he's asked of himself all his life, and may still be, at 67.  We all still are, and Pete realizes one thing most of us forgot:  you can never stop searching for "who I am," and as I often say, you never stop learning.  You must never stop learning.

It bothers me when I see people around me I've known for many, many years whose intellectual development clearly stopped either in high school or their freshman year in college.  Some never leave; we become inflexible in our views and feelings, and look where it gets us.

I admit, I sometimes don't stretch out like I should.  The Townshend book reminds me of that; and this project now reminds me that I should try something new, something other.

So we'll see where it goes...I'm getting my brain stretched, whether I want it or not!

Friday, July 20, 2012

Blog-A-Book...If You Blog It, Will They Come...?

Greetings, fellow bloggers, readers, lurkers and what have you...I am writing this Friday evening as I am once more dealing with the bane of writers everywhere...the Big R.


Rejection.


I have had a ton of it through my radio career, my literary career, my personal life, everywhere.  It's not so terrible, because you hope you learn something from it.


I wonder if I have.


Today, a certain unnamed publisher shot down a proposal for the "Sweet Dreams Series."  Nothing new.  One of the reasons given was interesting, because I had never heard of such a thing:  the location, which I thought was unique (coupled with the perspective), doesn't seem to fly with them.


Apparently, it's not conventional enough for them.  


Urgh.  Well, that makes me wonder if just had an idea and it really isn't that good at all.


I do not plan to give up; in fact, I need to share something with you.  I read in "Writer's Digest" about blogging your book.


Well, some of you might recall I tried that not long ago with the first book of "The Other Roads Club" Series.  Didn't get a whole lot of reaction to it; didn't expect it, but what I did get was pretty decent.


I wonder now...should I offer something more, and now that I have a slightly larger platform, would it work?


The aim is to find out what you think.  Is the story good? Do you like characters?  Does the premise work?  Would you read more?


Right now, I feel there is a great deal of stuff I could offer you that's actually really good.  A couple of my stories would work well here, and could lead to more attention.


I don't feel I've much of a choice; getting it out there is the only way to see.


You can still find in my previous blogs, "Take Another Road."  The story is copyrighted and I left it up.  Each chapter is well titled so you can figure the order.


That said:  I ask YOU...IF...I put up a chapter by chapter story again, WILL YOU READ IT?


Look, I realize life is busy for us all...but if you liked the first bit, would you read more?  Would you want to buy it, either as a book or an e-book?


Let me know...also, let me know if you would like the second book of the Other Roads Club, or something newer, different...


Let me know...I am listening...

Monday, January 9, 2012

Girding One's Loins...Such Interesting Mental Pictures

That does make for a very interesting one, doesn't it?


The definition of that term is, "to summon up one's inner resources in preparation for action."  As it says here:


http://www.thefreedictionary.com/gird+loins

I remember Harris in "Major League" saying that in a prayer before the beginning of the season; before that, Mark Twain wrote that Tom Sawyer did so, before preparing to study Bible verses.  


Yes, I'm attempting to summon my resources to get back to work in a manner of speaking.  I suppose the timing is not good, which is why I'm having my difficulties with it.


Add to that, I'm still adjusting to my upped druggage.  I was feeling really mellow...stoned, actually for the first three days of the increased amount of the Big Z.  My energy level has slowly returned, and I am not quite as plotless in my mind.


"TNT," Ladell McLin version...imagine AC/DC being played by a guy that looks like Prince and sounds & plays guitar a bit like Hendrix.  Interesting.  Other iTunes as the situation permits...


My writings of late have fallen off, mostly to deal with editing.  New ideas in the head, but one is starting to come to the fore and I have to get to it.  Did not get a lot of response when it came to my offering of "Take Another Road" on here, and I'm a little disappointed.  Oh well...


...my now ex-girlfriend (and it's official) Alice is going to apply her skills at graphic design and web-making to a site for moi later this month, so we'll roll with it from there.  Meanwhile, we each have things to get down on.  We're good; great friends, and know we understand one another damned well.  It's almost scary, but a very good thing.


For me, yes...the new book idea is coming, has been for several months, and I've several pages of sketches, storylines and characters.  It will be intriguing and different, yet also familiar, I hope.


"Jack-A-Lynn," by Jethro Tull.  Lovely...


Now anyway, I've done yet another edit of "Parasite Girls."  It's getting better; has potential as a film script, too.  Drama, I think...yes, mostly that, with a little action and excitement, but a study of the human being inside each of us, a little mad, a little not so, and whatever.  That's done.


As for the "Sweet Dreams Series," we're now forging ahead with a new tactic.  My intrepid agent will now attack the Mainstream Fiction market.  We were going YA with it, but it seems that the idea has been lost on some.


Honestly, this appeals to all, to more, to beyond just what that demographic reads.  Adults and kids of all ages have given me the thumbs up (but for one fellow, heehee, and he knows who he is, but it's cool he was honest with me and I love him for that).  It will go...dammit!


The manga side will soon be analyzed yet again and hopefully some action can be taken soon on that.


Now it is true that the SDS series after Book 3 needs some tweaking; I'll get to that over time, but it will be a larger project than I envisioned.  Need more time for that.  Much more.


"Bleed American," Jimmy Eat World; "I'm not crazy 'cause I take the right pills every day."  Heh.


Healthwise, I'm in good shape.  Better health, but I do worry a little about feeling smacked out at times.  Focus better, but there's a trade-off.


Must get ready to raise some hell with this new one...I think this will be a very hard topic for me, because it goes again back to parts of my life that were depressing, and I mean very depressing.  It's that part of my life that needs addressing.  I've addressed all manner of horrors in my writings, other's experiences told to me, plus my own.  And I have just gotten started there.


Fun, eh?  Oh yeah...


"Have to Drive..." -- from the recently purchased "Who Killed Amanda Palmer?" CD.  Figures...the Dresden Dolls (and the wonderfully dark-humored Ms. Palmer) are involved in the new work...oh yes, useful for the main character.


Now, this may seem rather off-topic, but it's not:


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Watch this, but zoom ahead to about the 1:55 mark...Jim Jeffries will tell you of a text message, and then ask a question of himself.


He will tell you the answer.


I think much alike in this respect, for good or ill.


Because of what goes on up in my mind, I can create some pretty neat things...and some odd ones.


Ah well..."Blowfish" by Steve Vai is on...


I better get to this while I'm still conscious...a couple days off before back to the work thing.  Let's see what comes of it all...

Friday, December 16, 2011

An Update on the Maniac...and Other fun Things

"take a look down at the madman..."


"Knife-Edge" by ELP kicked off my laptop iTunes as I begin this blog.  It's been a while since I've written one, and it's time to again take stock of the madness, and the madman...


I just got out of a visit to my doctor, whom I've not seen in 6 years.  Primary care...my issues are again being looked at, and here's what we have going.


My agitated state of mind and body has been noted and logged in more ways than one.  Of late, it has manifested itself into something that is slowly getting out of hand...again.


I've made it no secret that I suffer from depression.  I have been aware of it since I was about 12, and I'm sure it went before that.  With it came the motor agitation that at the time was just put down to general nervousness or hyperactivity.


I have NOT been diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder or anything of that sort.  I'm pretty sure that is not my case; I have relatives and friends with it, and I've seen enough to know I'm not that extreme.


But it is extreme enough at times.


My stress level is way up...my blood pressure was 20 points higher than it should have been when they checked me this morning, but that came from the agitation of being late for the appointment and trying to find the place.


This kind of thing is happening way too much lately.  I had been thinking the past few months about what would happen to this country if suddenly things stopped working, and this gives you an idea:


What if...little things we rely on stopped working?


The power going out in the snowstorm recently here...whoa, didn't people get highly pissed at that?


I remember being very worried about my pipes freezing, and the widespread outages made me worry as well for my aging landlords.  But they had a wood stove, so they were okay.  


But that...or even tinier things:


At the Morebucks, the Internet has this very annoying habit of freezing your screens.  A lot.  Free WiFi comes with a w/o warning freezeup that freaks people out.


It is an annoyance for me, but not one I will die over.


But some people freak out over this shit.


Traffic...same thing...I've experienced and viewed how we all get right out of our fucking minds if things don't go just right.


Stress...our E-string gets wound way too tight.


It happens.


Well, for me it has been ongoing as a problem.  I am not a huge fan of "South Park," but the kid named Tweak...that was me at 12.


"I CAN'T HANDLE ALL THIS PRESSURE!"


I identify with him.  


The doc is pretty sure I don't have ADD...she has a kid with it, so I think she'd know.


We had a long talk about the depression, and where it stands.  She noted the tremors in my hands.  Not Parkinson's or anything like that, thankfully.  


But yeah, my past and the stuff I've finally come to terms with...that, plus my feeling so scattered, at a loss, and overloaded with shit.


It is causing problems nearly everywhere I go, and I have to get a grip on it all.


Certain things are in my favor.  I quit drinking 16 years ago because of my intestinal issues, and that's all good.  I stopped smoking six months ago, and I've been working out since then.


My weight is 12-15 pounds less than it was back then, and I do feel a damn sight better.  The workouts have helped relieve a lot of stress, but that's not all of it.


The meds...up they go for a bit.


"Hey Darlin'" by Racing Rain is up...very nice...


I've been on Zoloft for 11 years, a light dose...we're going to up it, and see what happens.  Hopefully I can tolerate it.


Trying as well to find other things to cool myself out, but just that alone does not always work.  


Oh, yes, I have to cut back on the caffeine!  Oh dear...what will I do?


I know what I have to do, so I'll handle it...a switch to tea shouldn't be too bad, and if I can find decaf that doesn't taste like muddy water I'll be happy.


Also, I will be seeing a therapist, I think.


I'm sure you're having images of Woody Allen in "Annie Hall," lying on a couch with some Freudian shrink asking about his sex life.  I don't think it's gonna be like that.  This will be a psychologist, not a shrink.  


"Dukes Intro," Genesis...semi-prog.


I think it will help me work out a bunch of issues that I have tried to handle on my own, and now cannot completely do.  I don't think we're going to find any great breakthroughs here, but I'm not afraid to admit that it might be time for such a thing.


Oh yeah...the man I'm being referred to is Jewish.  HAHAHA!  Isn't that a trip?  Doesn't matter to me, but it is funny, isn't it?


Anyway, I'm really alright, and I think I'll get this taken care of...


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I do have to get some parts of my life better organized, and I hope to do that.


Now that I am done with serializing "Take Another Road," I was really hoping for some more opinions and critiques.  Haven't got many, and I'm hopeful someone would take the time to let me know what they thought of it, good, bad, indifferent.


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I'm doing one final edit of "Silk Road Days" for now; I will be re-examining the "Sweet Dreams Series" to see what we can do next to make it viable.  I hope to again find a way to make this thing workable, but we need to push harder in certain areas.


"Breakout," an updated jazzy version by Swing out Sister.  I've always loved Corrine Drewrey's voice...sexy as all hell.


So much more to deal with...I'll see what comes next.


And life goes on I suppose...back on WITF this afternoon, then a game on the Ticket...things aren't too bad at all, are they?

Sunday, December 11, 2011

The Finale: Chapter 26, Take Another Road: "Another Road"

This is it!  The final chapter of "Take Another Road!"  I thank everyone who has read through the saga, and I hope to find out your opinions and feelings now that it's done.

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Chapter 26—Another Road
            Aimi opened her eyes.  At first wasn’t sure where she was, and had awakened to find herself in a rather cramped position.  Then she remembered, and moved carefully so as not to disturb the person whose arms held her. 
            The two armchairs in the living room had again been pushed together to make a small bed.  But for an old, oversized t-shirt, Aimi was naked beneath the wool blanket wrapped about her and Minoru.
            She thought back to the frantic moments of the night before, as the typhoon blew itself out.  Kaldera had been carried inside after his collapse, but to everyone’s relief regained consciousness almost immediately.  He was brought to the couch, where Saki was ready, a cup of coffee in hand.  As she got him to drink it, Kaldera sniffed, and his sense of humor returned.
            “Found my bottle of Jagermeister,” he observed.  “This’ll be the best cup of coffee I’ve had in a while!”
            Despite all that had happened in the past several hours, everyone had to laugh, and all availed themselves of the food and drink Saki and the others had prepared.  “All of you,” Kaldera said as he headed for the bedroom with Saki’s help, “you did damn well out there.  Every one of you showed courage, and you did indeed work as team.”  Raising his cup, he added, “Here’s to every one of you--I am thankful you are my friends.”
            The others eventually trooped to the shower, while Daisuke borrowed a change of clothes and went to the hospital.  As dawn broke, the group began to crash:  Kaz fell asleep on one end of the couch, while Mei took the other, Midori in her arms.  Minoru opted for the chairs again, and as he climbed into it, he noticed Aimi as she stood in the room. 
            Aimi was wrapped in a thin blanket, and wondered where she should sleep.  She had tried not to let Minoru notice her uncertainty; she didn’t want to assume anything.  At the same time, Aimi could not deny that she wanted to be beside Minoru, now.
            Minoru of course had seen through it.  “Aimi,” he whispered, “you can come here.  Don’t worry, I won’t try anything.”
            Aimi chuckled as she wrapped her blanket more tightly about herself.  “I wasn’t think of that, Minoru,” she replied quietly, and sat on the edge of the chairs.  “But how is this going to look?”
            “Does it matter?”  Minoru’s eyes were heavy, and he replied, “I may not be in my right frame of mind, but I know how I feel for you, Aimi.  You saved my life, my family’s lives--we’ll never be able to repay that.  And while this is not the time or place for acting on it, may I at least say that I love you?  As a friend, but also more, I feel?”
            Aimi smiled, and she reached out and ran her hand through Minoru’s hair.  “I feel it too,” she said quietly.  “I didn’t just go out there for my friends--I went out there for people I love.”
            She shed her blanket, then stepped over the chair and climbed into Minoru’s arms.  She curled her body against his, and Minoru wrapped his blanket around both of them.
            “What did you do out there?”  Saki sat on the bed beside Kaldera as she placed a wet cloth on his forehead.  Kaldera was a feverish, but Saki did not detect much more wrong, apart from that and exhaustion.
            “I called on the powers,” Kaldera explained, his eyes closed.  “I asked for help from the Spirit World, to give me the strength to lead us to our friends, and to bring them home.  I can’t really say much more than that, Saki; it would not make sense to you, and I am still not sure of it all myself.  I am a healer, but not a very good one.  I have had to expend so much energy over the years to heal myself, I wondered if I had anything left to give to others.”
            Saki walked around the bed and removed her tank top as she did so.  “You do,” she said, “and you have.  I have watched you do your work; when you play music, when you sing, and when you teach others--that is how you do it.  The way you have brought these kids together, people who are of different circumstances, but have things in common, that’s a gift.  You have given freely of that gift, Kaldera.  Don’t think you haven’t done anything since then.”
            Kaldera smiled as he watched Saki bend over to remove her underwear, and then slide into bed beside him.  “You are very kind, Saki,” he said, “too kind.”
            “I hardly think so.”  She leaned past Kaldera and turned the key to switch off the antique lamp.  As she lay against him and pulled the bed covers over their bodies, she asked, “One more thing, Kaldera?”
            “Yes?”
            “The song that was such a big hit in America,” Saki asked, “what song was it?”
            Kaldera chuckled.  “It was the worst of an eight-track demo I gave to a singer friend of mine,” he said.  “He called me a week later to say this song was the one he was going to cut.  I was honored he would record any of them, but I so wished it would have been one of the others.”
            “It must have been a very good song,” Saki posed, “at least in his mind.”
            Kaldera shook his head as he began to drift off to sleep.  “To borrow an old phrase,” he said, “it was a piece of shit.”
            Kaz set a laundry basket full of wet clothes, blankets and other items on the Kudo’s deck.  He had awakened a few hours after the boat’s arrival; everyone else was still down for the count.  Deciding to find something to do without waking up the house, he went down to the boat.
            The Kudo was going to need some repairs before she could put to sea again.  Kaz found no leaks as he inspected the hull; some of the lines, tackle and lighting rig however would need to be replaced.  He’d leave that to Kaldera, but Kaz could at least do some of the housekeeping.
            He looked across the water.  The sun was shining, and it was a beautiful day, apart from the mess the storm had left behind:  two nearby fishing boats were being pumped out, and there was debris of all sorts floating in the water.  Some of the buildings nearby had lost parts of their roofs, and at least one of the dry-docked boats in the yard had been damaged.
            “Kaz!”  He turned and saw Asuka walking up the gangplank.  She was wearing the same clothes she’d had on from the night before, though they were now dry.  Her hair was brushed but frizzy, and she had dark circles under her eyes.
            He found himself rushing to Asuka, and the two embraced.  “Are you all right?”  Kaz asked.  “How are your parents?”
            Asuka clung to Kaz, and said nothing for a long moment.  “They’re fine,” she replied eventually.  “Dad has a separated shoulder, but the doctors told us it is not serious.  Mom is fine, just worn out.  They’re being kept until tomorrow for observation; they released me this morning.  I had Daisuke drop me off here; I wanted to see you, all of you.”
            Kaz looked into Asuka’s face, and down her body.  Her sweatshirt did little to obscure the curves of her body, and her tight, rolled up jean shorts showed all of her lean, toned legs.  She looked so good right now, even in this state, but he quickly averted his eyes to her own. 
            “We’re okay,” he said, “everyone’s still asleep up there.  I came down to get this stuff taken care of.”
            Asuka nodded, but continued to lean on Kaz.  “Is Minoru all right?”
            “Yeah, he’s fine.”
            “That’s good.”  Asuka raised her head and looked up at Kaz.  “You saved us,” she said, “I don’t know how to begin to thank you.”
            “No thanks are necessary, Asuka,” Kaz told her, “don’t even think about it.  We did it because we had to; we’re your friends, and…” 
            Kaz had stopped, and Asuka noticed he had looked away.  She reached up and took his face in her hand.  “What is it?”
            Those fingers, strong yet delicate touched Kaz’s skin.  He again looked to her, then slowly moved one arm around Asuka’s waist, the other about her shoulders.  “You don’t owe me a thing, Asuka,” he stammered.  “I…”  He tried again to turn away, but Asuka held to him, with a strength he hadn’t anticipated.
            “I know,” she replied, “it‘s hard to say what you want, isn‘t it?”
            “Yes.”  Kaz was shaking inside, yet a feeling was rising in him that he could not hold off.  “I have been trying to keep my mouth shut,” he began again, “and my eyes off you Asuka…out of respect for you, and for Minoru.”
            Asuka smiled and nodded approvingly.  “That is very gentlemanly of you, Kaz,” she replied.  “May I ask you a question?”
            “Sure.”  Kaz was only a little taller than Asuka, and he found himself looking down into her face.  It was so close.
            “Minoru told me there is one who loves me that’s very close,” she said.  “Is that one you?  If so, I wish to hear you say it.”
            Kaz blinked.  “Yes,” he said with some difficulty, “it’s me.” 
            He had no chance to say more, as Asuka’s lips met his and the two kissed.  He didn’t know how long they stood there, but the kiss went on for some time.  Both were inexperienced in this, but it didn’t matter.
            Kaz’s eyes opened, the same time as Asuka’s.  He could not speak, only smile.
            Asuka turned to look down the open hatch.  “Come with me,” she said.
            Kaz allowed himself to be led by the hand, down the Kudo’s steps. 
            Dear Journal:  The days that followed the rescue were a whirlwind, almost like the storm itself.  Fortunately none of our friends were badly hurt.  The boat was a total loss, but it was insured.  There were no other serious injuries from that terrible storm either, I’m so relieved.
            Now that the excitement is over, we can move forward again.  Minoru and I are closer now, and everyone seems fine with it.  Asuka and Kaz are dating now, too, and they are a great couple.  Keru seems to approve; he has changed, and it happened even before the storm.  Mei and Midori?  Well, we know about them, and none of us could be happier.
            Mom and Dad were very concerned when they learned what I’d done, but they also knew that I would have laid down my life for my friends.  Kaz’s parents at first thought he’d gone mad, but they were in awe of how brave he was, and are very proud of him.  I am glad for that, because even with their breaking up, Kaz loves them both so much--he’s needed their approval.  Maybe now they see how well he’s turning out.  I can also say that all of us are becoming even better friends; we’re closer than we ever thought possible.
            We got a small write-up in a local newspaper about the rescue, but I don’t consider myself a hero, none of us do.  We did what we had to, and I hope if a situation like that ever arises again, I can act the same way.
 In any case, Keru and his family have been more than grateful; they hosted an event at the club for everyone, and Kaldera performed of course.  This time, it was different:  Marlie joined him onstage, as did Kaz and Minoru!  Kaz sang that new song, and it was wonderful.  We’re all finding ourselves, even me.  I don’t know what I’m going to do after high school, but as my family has said, I should enjoy my youth and my friends.  There will be plenty of time to know what I will become.
            Aimi stood at the bow of the Kudo, in a one-piece black bathing suit.  It was a gift from Minoru; not because he wanted to see her in it (though that might have been an incentive), but he knew that she didn’t like her school suit, either. 
            Today the Other Roads Club would make another trip to the island, but this time it would be even better.  Beside her at the bow was Asuka in her white bikini, and she looked as good as ever.  Arms around one other, Aimi said, “We’re right back where we started, aren’t we?”
            Asuka laughed.  “I suppose so,” she admitted, “but I can’t complain.”
            “Neither can I.”  Kaz and Minoru then joined them at the bow, and Aimi looked behind her.  Mei had overcome her fear of being on a boat, and she made her way forward, wearing a black sarong over a red swimsuit.  Midori followed her in a floral bikini, and they joined the others at the rail. 
            “No seasickness yet, Mei?”  Kaz quipped.
            “Don’t remind me!  No, I’m cool,” Mei replied as she quickly softened her tone.  The day was sunny and wind filled the sails, but the waves were only very slight.  “I’m doing fine.”
            Aimi looked behind them:  Kaldera was at the rail, Keru beside him.  The latter’s arm was still in a sling, but he was in better form, a lit cigar in his teeth as enjoyed the trip.  Nanae sat at the stern alongside Aimi’s parents, and all waved to her.  Saki was also back there, in a black thong standing on the other side of Kaldera.  Daisuke was aboard too, one of Saki’s hostess bar colleagues (similarly attired) as his date for the day.
            Turning to face forward, Aimi said, “We’ve come a long way, and our lives will only get better.”  Pointing ahead, she added, “Look!  Our lives are as open as the horizon.  No matter where we go--I’ll always love you guys, and remember what we’ve been through.”
            Kaz put his hand forward.  “The Other Roads Club--may it live on forever, and may we always take the one less traveled.”
            Everyone put a hand on Kaz’s.  “And that will make all the difference,” Minoru declared.
            “Hear, hear!”  All said, and held to one another as the Kudo took a heavy swell.  Then the music came on again, over the loudspeakers, and Aimi smiled as she looked forward into the sun.

“Take another road to a hiding place
Disappear without a trace
Take another road to another time

On another road in another time
Like a novel from the five-and-dime
Take another road, another time…"

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(Author's Note:  "Take Another Road" is written by Jimmy Buffett, Jay Oliver and Roger Guth.  It appears on the album, Off to See the Lizard, 1989.)

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That is it, the first of The Other Roads Club trilogy!